a little writing

crossed in vision and cynical mindHow does it feelto be left behindwatching the world passwith vivid shades and huescolors forming rainbowswhile its still black and white to youI've seen the winds of changeand breathed them in too deeppenetrating the core of my beingSince the day you left meSo call me what you willthe liar, slut or whorethe best mistake I ever madeis the one I lost you overwhile pettyness still guides youthrough misaccusations and denialyou made a big mistake and plead guilty at your trialThen again you didn;t knowI guess you never couldof the disenchanted perplexitiesTo accusing drug usesee its just a little funnythat your mind is like a wallno door to try and openjust a surface blank and coldEmotionless it standsand the same way it will fallCovered with Obsenities and powerless to complainwell that said I have to say its been a good night...though I do find it a little annoying that NO MATTER how hard I try to forget someone exists they have to poke their nose into my life... Dev so you know Trish wouldn;t even be in the back of my mind if it wasn;t for the IM's she sent Christine the other day...Ironic isn;t it...I have been leaving her alone like she asked don;t even know or care if she is in one peice anymore and yet she still has the audacity to call me a stalker while shoving herself into my life in some way and for lack of a better phrase trying to "educate" my girlfriend to things I already told her before we were even together...Hell the woman has known me for 2 years...and knew when I screwed up things with trish because she asked what was bothering me and I told the truth...hell waqnt proof ask her yourself...Trish can give you th screen name thats for sure...but lets face facts its hard to leave someone alone that keeps trying to be a pain in the arse...too bad you only real leverage is taken away by me turning out to have really stopped lying anyway gotta wash my coffee cup and get ready to go later john